Anxious

I have to admit...I'm getting nervous. The more I focus on the fact that I have 5.5 weeks left of this pregnancy, the more I think about how the baby has to come out. Its not something I want to think about. I am very content with this little person being inside of me (although I am anxious to meet him or her). And I'm not naive, I knew all along this baby has to come out...but now its real.

I'm anxious about delivery...Will it hurt? Can I handle it? Will everything be okay? Will the baby be healthy? Will the baby come early or right at 40 weeks? Is the baby running out of room in there? Should I try labor without drugs? What about an epidural? Will getting that hurt? I have no idea what to expect or how my body/mind will handle this. Every delivery is different, every pregnancy is different...I'm a planner, but how do you plan for something when you have no idea what to expect?

I guess I have to enjoy the ride and the experience...I worry too much about getting from point A to point B and don't take enough time to enjoy the journey. I know this...but it doesn't make it any less scary that in a few weeks (really any time now) we're going to be parents and have this little person who will depend on us for everything. But most of all I just worry about getting this baby out!!

"Don't be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus." Phil 4:6-7

-T-