OUCH!!!!

Poor little legs!

Sweet baby Jayne had her first shots today. She did really well...only crying for a few seconds. I on the other hand bawled like a baby. I didn't actually see the needles at all. The nurse had me hold Jayne's hands and talk to her...what got me was the look of pure shock on my sweet baby's face as the first needle went in. That was the point I lost it, knowing I couldn't take that pain from her as she was looking into my eyes. My heart literally broke.

She was so red in the face and cried that deep cry where she can't even get a breath...it didn't last long and even though I know we chose to do the right thing for our sweet girl, I felt like a bad Momma for a few minutes. She calmed down as soon as I picked her up and gave her a paci. She fell asleep in the car on the way home, slept all through the grocery shopping but then screamed bloody murder when we took her from her car seat. Daddy loved on her and gave her a bottle while I made dinner...then I gave her bath and rocked her for a bit and now she is asleep...my sweet baby!!!

Speaking of sleep...Jayne slept through the night for five out of the last eight nights...but not since we came home from our trip to Ohio. The doctor said since she did it for 4-5 nights in a row, we know she is capable of that and as soon as we are ready, we can just let her cry when she wakes up between 4-5am. Its so hard to do...I tried that this morning when she woke up at 4:30am, but that only lasted for 5 minutes before I got up to get her. I know she can do it, but am I ready to let her??? I want my sleep, don't get me wrong, but I can't sleep when my baby is in the other room crying...even though I know its not because she is hungry. Even this morning as soon as I picked her up she stopped crying and wasn't rooting like she was hungry. Its kind of like she goes "hmm...well since you're up I might as well get a little snack. Thanks Mom!" We'll see how tonight goes...fingers are crossed and prayers have been said!!

This is what happened during tummy time today...
So sweet!

My sweet, happy girl

Also, I decided now that I am a SAHM (stay at home momma) that I need to try my hand at cooking different meals. I went through all my cookbooks and tagged a few recipes I want to try. My goal is to do one or two new meals a week using mostly the ingredients we already have in the house. Tonight I made Chicken Scampi which turned out really good and was easy to do. One down... =)
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